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Its been a really rough week for everyone, i think. assignments, exams, tests, all seeming rather daunting and a big challenge that we have to overcome. and it is in these times that we often neglect our first priority. we forget to let God's peace dwell in us and us to rest in Him. God's the one that is in charge, i need to depend on Him. so i'm gonna keep striving, and not lose steam.. God's going to be there for me all the way! and He will for you too. (:

a shout of praise.
11:49 PM

a shout of praise.
3:08 PM

blehh. something's wrong with the tagboard. i hope its a problem with cbox, like a temporary time out or something.

so tired.
went for jeannie's ballet dance in the end, and reminiscenced of mg dance.
katie's party came after, and we arrived underdressed. (it was a cocktail party and we were in jeans.) not that it mattered, just that we stuck out like a sore thumb.
met judy, another mg girl who's in lifeng's year (class of '03) and was a GB girl, she just came for uni.. no wonder i found her so familiar.
we sang to bsb and ate jelly beans and pranced to 70's music and continued being sore thumbs in the sea of beautiful people.
then i slept almost the whole car ride home.


i'm so tired right now that i cant think straight. i've even resorted to writing such short sentences.
actually had a whole post planned on the dance performance but i really cant be bothered. maybe if i feel like it i'll write about it tmr, though i probably wont remember anything about it by then. my short term memory sure does me no good. and anyway i'm sure you all dont want to reand a long boring (actually its quite interesting) post on it.
hmmm. waiting for jeannie to come out of the bathroom so i can bathe.
i think she still wants to watch anime.
oh, i think i'm getting old. i need so much sleep.
wonder where she gets all her energy from.
blah.




goodnight world.

a shout of praise.
12:28 AM

why is it that whenever i try to study there is always some greater force attracting me to it? like say, in the BH (abbrv. for boarding house) when i study, there's always the food peering at me from the top desk shelf. or the nice soft blanket which makes me want to go to sleep. and the worst bit, the storybooks that i borrow from the library. i can go on reading for hours into the night! and when i take a glance at the clock, it is already 1 am, and i have to sleep otherwise my name will be announced over the intercom "kristi ng, please come down to reception, you did not eat your breakfast". and that, would be highly embarrassing, because everyone else sleeps at 10 and wakes up at 7 because breakfast is at 7 and breakfast is the best meal which the BH provides. oh, my apologies, with the exception of sag, but the housies have already come to accept the fact that our dear friend sag cannot wake up when the bell goes at 7 and does not eat her breakfast, unlike me, who's well known because of my gluttony (okay, not THAT well known), and has always been a GOOD GIRL who sets an EXEMPLARY EXAMPLE for the younger years. oh well, my only consolation is that my vocabulary widens from reading. and that's good, right?

and now, even on the weekends.. because we come back so late every friday night from bs, we end up sleeping in the wee hours of the morning, and i, tired from my recent and frequent late nights in the BH, is unable to wake up to the persistent alarms (i set three) that are ringing, by my ear. i am flabbergasted at my laziness. and when i woke up today at 10 am (because jeannie has a music audition at hale) to have breakfast with jeannie and uncle loi, i felt rather proud. but then the evils of sleepiness attacked me once again once i decided to start on my work, so having slogged hard at applic and calculus, (i finished 1 and a half papers then!) i fell asleep for about 2 hours and woke up at quarter to 2. and since then, i've finished the other half of the calc paper, and started on econs ( i wrote a paragraph) and started blogging.
oh the horror.

katie's party is in 3 hours, but we'll only be getting there at 9.30 because jeannie has her ballet performance at the quarry amphitheatre, and i think i'm supposed to go watch her dance or something. not that i'm not interested, i really do love dance, but i've got more pressing issues at hand, and i have to finish studying by this thursday so i can confidently say that i've put in effort. which, suffice to say, at the moment, i have not.

anyway, i should be heading back to outlining a range of policies suitabe to combat current economic problems in Australia after evaluating the economy's performance. i am so crap at this. i think the only thing i can do is draw the AS/AD diagram. and thats about it. but not to fret kristi! you have faith that God will put words in your mouth (please please please!) to answer this question brilliantly.

alright. away i go. ta'

a shout of praise.
4:12 PM

blehhh. its getting warmer by the day.. spring is coming! apparently there's supposed to be a heat wave this season, SO IT'S TIME TO HIT THE BEACH GUYS!!! yeah. ehehheh. (: not that i have the time to.. mocks are just around the corner (its next thurs!) and i'm starting to wonder if i'll be able to make it or not (most probably cmi) so yes.

we just got back from OCF! (we as in me and jeannie) and :D :D today was so fun cos it was combined OCF, so everyone from the 3 different OCF groups here had a major gathering.. sorta like a whole service complete with sermon. (: AND GUESS WHAT! i met so many new people today! (okay not new since they've been there all along but you get what i mean. right?) anyway. so i met an mg girl (hiphurray!) and a brmc person (whoots~!) and made more other friends... i think its awesome meeting mg girls in so many different parts of australia. (: this girl's 2 years my junior and she's called sheryl tan or cheryl tan, so if she stayed in mg she would be class of '07. her sister's tracy! my dance senior! how cool's that! umm and the brmc guy's called raymond and he's yado's and chang's age and from 10.30. wheee. exciting. (: it feels so nice to know that you have connections from sg in a foreign country. (:

bleh. i need to learn to sound more mature. i think being around jeannie has made me more heeheehaha (or giggly in proper terms).. and with dee too. LOL. too much 'bad' influence. :P

OH. something thoughtful. i found out today that i could have taken chinese as a second language for TEE and it would have been counted! and apparently its uber easy, so like, i guess i would have done well. and then i can count it for TEE and hopefully pull up my marks. BUT, its too late to change subjects. just when i was thinking that my chinese was really good and i would probably top my chinese class IF i had taken chinese, i came across these china girls at the supermarket and they asked me in chinese if i knew what fen3 qie4 was cos they couldnt find it in the supermarket and didnt know how to ask the checkout chicks where it was. so, they asked me since i was like practically the only chinese around. surprisingly, i didnt know what they were talking about. (okay so it was not really that surprising, but i'm trying to be scarcastic here) and they had to go away disappointed and unable to completely their yummy dinner, leaving me feeling really sheepish about any previous thought of my "awesome" command of the chinese language.

and speaking of food, i think i have yet again managed somehow to put on **newsreader voice** MORE WEIGHT. yes ladies and gentlemen, this is today's breaking news. i guess its because of the exam period and my restless mouth, which doesnt know how to stop feeling itchy. so scratch la! i hear you say. its not that simple. you see, the amounts of tantalising food here in the land of the down under is absurdly enormous and all available at ridiculously low prices (yes i know! despite the rising inflation rates! no wonder the price level going up. all these demand for cheap food! it doesnt make sense that they still sell food at such low prices though. okay shut up with the econs kristi), hence when i see this food i feel them calling out to me begging me to eat them before they end up unwanted in the dirty rubbish bin. i mean come on, who can resist such temptation? oh! **dramatic pause** the horrors of my gluttony.

anyway, its time to go make katie a birthday card, because it is her birthday party tommorrow night (: jeannie and i are going to handmake her a beautifully decorated card and it will so make ice jealous. HEE. right. my feeble attempt to tell a lame joke. we love katie! (:

katie, me and jeannie outside church! (:

a shout of praise.
12:18 AM

oh my gosh. i've written 7 posts this weekend and i cant stop talking.

seriously, someone has to cut my fingers off.
on second thoughts, dont. because otherwise i wont be able to take TEE. heh.


i feel really random this weekend. it kinda feels like a rollercoaster freak ride which i cant get off. and i've lost momentum.
i think blogging has somewhat of a calming effect, where i can just say spurt all my emotions. and its really addictive too. cos finally something listens to what i say, and the good thing is, it doesnt talk back. i've really got to get a lock for my blog. so that people dont have to keep reading about my R&Rs for the day. but then again, no one ever reads my blog anyway. i write too much and i think that scared away any visitors that i originally had.

ladeela. but oh well. all these posts make up for the lack of posts for the week. and it satisfies the desire to crap, especially when i think of all the things to write about in the week but cant because our fantastic efficient school IT technicians banned the wonderful world of blogging. maybe i should start another diary.

but then again, i hate physically having to write. its such a chore. my hand gets tired and its such a waste of paper and ink and white out and lead and eraser, since i always give up halfway anyway. typing suits me so much more. (i guess thats partly the reason why i dont do so well in the exams cos ideas dont flow when i dont have a keyboard in front of me.)

i love tulips (: so pretty. especially the purple and baby yellow and pink and orange ones. (: (:

a shout of praise.
4:13 PM

okay thats it. the computer is too luring. i've decided to be productive and combine the use of BOTH my computer and the desperado desire to blog with what i absolutely have to do, i.e. study, together. boy. i am smart =D you can ignore this post and i'm making it white so its easier to skip. (:


okay. so i have to study microeconomic reform.
define MER: all government policies that reduce institutional and legal barrieres to efficient resource allocation
how does MER work? MER is a deliberate attempt to increase the pace of of structural change. because of the '70s Australian economy, where firms and enterprises were protected, inefficient and unproductive, the Government had to implement some sort of policy to undo this. MER opened up the australian economy through a series of policies and reforms, which introduced competition to the market, reduced reliance on the government and floated the dollar. competiton forces firms to reduce costs of production so that consumer prices fall.
MER causes:
1. efficiency through competition - technical, dynamic, allocative
2. reduction in cyclical unemployment (may cause temporary structural unemployment)
3. reduces the CAD because firms borrow less as they become more efficient hence reducing interest payments on debt (net income)
4. maintains price stability - companies and firms are forced to produce at low costs, hence passing on lower prices to consumers (price competitiveness), which in turn results in a low inflation environment (cost-push)
5. raises international competitiveness in Australia - imported g&s are cheaper (especially from china), hence domestic firms have to compete with those prices. promotes efficiency.
HENCE meeting government objectives of economic growth, full employment, price stability, external balance and efficiency.

this causes a shift in the AS curve to the right - firms produce more at a lower price level. this can also be illustrated by a outward movement of the PPC because the capacity of the economy has expanded. this also allows for the increases in AD.

examples of MER in australia:
1. tax reform
2. financial deregulation
3. labour market reform
4. public sector reform
5. tariff reform
6. corporatization, privatization
- all of which mainly is to promote competition and efficiency, as well as incentives for being productive.


okay. i think thats about it. i only need to understand how tax affects the economy structurally.. gah. rehana reminded me last night that i have a check point tomorrow.. !&$(!*#^$&!!! luckily she told me yesterday. my gosh. there was once where i didnt know we had a test but luckily it was on tax so it wasnt that bad. i finished the essay. so that was a hiphooray moment. (:

a shout of praise.
2:53 PM

okay so this is my last post for the week. its sunday, which means tmr is back to school day and means the start of the final week of school before we go on study leave the next, and then...

EXAMS.


oh the horror.

i felt even more contradictory today.
arrived at church and all i felt was empty.
what happened to the rush of emotions that i felt on friday?
the passion and longing for something that is far greater than i can ever imagine?
all that blown away, and all i had left was an empty shell.
but then the Lord spoke, through today's message, and i thought some more.

Topic: One Consuming Passion
Passage: Rev 2:1-7

"remember the height from which you have fallen! repent and do the things you did at first" Rev 2:5
i feel myself searching in the deep recesses of my heart for an emotion, something, somewhere, for that passion that i once felt, that i once truly felt.
but all i got was nothing. a blank. all my questions left unanswered.
how Lord, how can i do the things i did at first, when i dont even know how i felt at first?

God versus myself
being holy and righteous versus being worldly
rejoicing in the Lord versus gloating with the world

these are dangerous times.
there are somedays when i feel convicted by the Lord and the Holy Spirit.
yet there are those days when i feel drawn to the world and its desires. for once to forget that i am christian, forget the rules of the bible, and live life as the world does. shallow, deceitful, proud.
and then after that, i feel guilty, and then i repent.
but then the whole dreadful cycle repeats itself, and i find myself hating the other side of me more, and more.
now i really understand the meaning of being heavy laden and emptiness.

"to him who overcomes, i will give the right to eat from the tree of life." Rev 2:7
i long for when that day comes for me.
i am tired. i am weary.
how i wish to be like those strong women of faith, women of kindness, women of love.
sometimes i just think that i'm not worthy of God's love. i'm not worthy to live the life that i have now. so much given, so little returned. yet God still freely gives. how magnanimous God is! and i start to feel ashamed of myself, for the foolish ways i think.


"never will I leave you, never will I forsake you" heb 13:5
and so i end with an encouragement for myself.
discipleship lesson's on wed. maybe by then i can recollect myself, and start all over again, ready for what God has to say to me next.



and in the meantime, i continue studying.
exams are nearly here.

a shout of praise.
1:30 PM

one futile day, passed like that. its almost 10, and i still havent done much.

i'm being rather contradictory today.
oh wells.
and i think i talk too much.
or i think too much.
either that or i stone.
which i think i rather the first 2 cos then i'm being productive.
which means i've got allocative efficency
and although its probably negative since my distribution of time resource isnt exactly marvellous

ah crap. i'm rambling again
econs econs. back to the good old MER.

why does australian economics seem to be so chim now that i have to study the WHOLE book? i liked it better when we just had half in the exam. gah..
i'm drifting...

PARRY AND KEMP PARRY AND KEMP PARRY AND KEMP!

a shout of praise.
9:49 PM

GAHH! 4 hours have passed and all i've done is calc and english. i have yet to cover organic chem! (but actually i think organic chem is my best topic so i dont have to focus on that too much..) but blehhh! i havent done much! :


Homer Simpson - despicable character, drinks too much eats too much. loves being lazy, hates to work. the perfect example of a slob. he contradicts all the values and attitudes set by society -unsuccessful, poor parenting skills, fat, alcoholic. what is he trying to prove?

yet the strange thing is, people like him. children think the world of him. statistics show that majority of english children think that he's the best dad in the world. why? simply because he is a fictional character that we can relate to. he's the one that is able to defy the pressure to comform to societal standards. secretly, we want to be like him. (or rather i do. who does want to do nothing for a living?) but because the world said we have to do this, and the country has set a criteria that we have to live up to, thats why we give up our deepest darkest desires to be what the world deems us to be, to have, to own. yes. we are positioned to feel disgusted with Homer Simpson.

so, why do we watch his cartoon? one, for entertainment purposes. who doesnt want a good laugh? Homer Simpson has to be the worst produced character alive. the cartoon is too addictive. we just want to keep watching to see what more worse misdeeds he can come up with with each progressing episode. two, because we secretly want to be like him. as mentioned before, he is the only one that can ignore societal values and attitudes to be himself, to persue the temporary gratifications that the world offers. sure, we may despise his behaviour, but truthfully? i'm sure every one would like to be just like him. in today's society, with the "bad values" such as lust, alcoholism, smoking, being unproductive, being a dimwit, it is no wonder that people are drawn to Homer Simpson, who meets every one of these values. because of our inability to slack off, seeing Homer Simpson do so, makes us envious and glad at the same time. envious because Homer is able to do so, and glad because finally there is some one who escapes the trap of the "right" values and attitudes albeit that Homer Simpson is after all only a fictional character. but because we are so in tune with the characterisation of Homer Simpson, and the fact that he seems so real to our reality, makes us feel that Homer isn't really that ficticious after all.

the world of Homer Simpson must be like heaven. something which is so unreachable and unattainable because of not just the world, but your family and friends as well; what they all expect of you. Homer Simpson is so simple minded and straight forward that nothing can stop him from drinking yet another can of Duff while sitting in front of the television, with that spare tyre peeking out from underneath his food stained, crumpled shirt. the attitude, that of being free from the world's opinion, is what we like. "the reality of constant striving and constant disappointment" is what the article says, and is what we face everyday. yet being able to sit down after school or work to watch an episode of "The Simpsons" and relate to Homer's feelings, seeing how he reacts towards these disappointments just gives us a glimmer of the possibility of what if: what we would do if the world hadnt already plan our future.

oh my gosh, and i dont even like simpsons. i dont watch it. what kind of personal response is this?

bah. i have to turn that into a 2 page essay. at least there are more stuff in the article that i can talk about. but in this argument, i've already digressed from the main topic. WHAT IS HUMAN BEHAVIOUR! what does it mean??! should i define it as our feelings and reactions toward Homer Simpson? gah. helppp. and you know what, its really ironic for me that what the examiners what to hear is about the my perspective as a human being on this world, not about my perspective as a christian on the views and values and attitudes which these passages contain. sure, i can write about it, but i wont score. and i havent even talked about techniques used in the passage. bleh. and i havent started on chem. oh mudder, its already 6.30. save me, someone.

a shout of praise.
5:38 PM

well. heh. i was reading my older posts and i feel really immature in the way that i write. :X yes. me. truthfully, i think even 10 years down the road i'll still be immature.

there's a little kid in me that wants to grow up
yet its drawing back
because it is afraid of the world

jeannie's gone for ballet. good time to get down to work. not that she's distracting. i think i'm the one that distracts her. oh well.

see you.

a shout of praise.
1:16 PM

YAY i changed my layout again to this pretty skin. (: just in time for bed..


thanks to jeannie who took the photograph.

and altered it with picasa2.

and i photoshopped it.
and i made a template for it.

and ta-da.
beautiful!
(:

nice.





jeannie pretending to be crazy.. she actually looks alot better than this. :P i had to put this up. hahahhaa.

love you <3

a shout of praise.
3:10 AM

i think i learn alot from being in OCF, so much so that its getting even harder to leave this place. (sniff sniff sob sob) but yeah. like today's bs message was pretty strong. we're doing a series on exodus now, and we're on our 2nd last bs session. its been a pretty awesome topic. especially about issues of getting out of your comfort zone, that God is bigger than anything else out there, learning to trust God's long term plan for you . its a pretty amazing conviction. i mean, i've heard the message so many times now, but then i think the impact is greater this round because of what i've experience this past year. its really overwhelming when i come to think about it. for me, coming to perth is like an exodus for me. i feel totally like moses when God spoke to him in the burning bush. i mean, why me? i just want to be myself.

i had to step out of my comfort zone into God's plan for me. and its been a pretty daunting task.. i really hate being in an unfamilar place and starting out with no friends. many a times i feel like i'm alone in this walk, so i'm really glad that God has blessed me with a really good friend to remind me that i'm not alone and he has been there. (and yes, this is you jeannie, and i love you very much). and my journey here doesnt just end. i was still blessed with even more school friends to make school life bearable and a christian support family. my OCF group. (: and when i come to think about it, yes! God has really provided me alot more than my narrow mind can imagine. all these little things that add up that makes me feel really thankful to God, and sometimes i think i dont give God enough credit for it.

yes i know that i have mentioned this many times, but today, the emotions are really pouring out of me and i just have to get this out so bear with me. i feel the need to share it with the world.

anyway. so yes, and now exams are around the corner, and i'm starting to feel really pressured. but today i'm reminded of the fickleness of the israelites faith when they were stuck between the percievably uncrossable red sea and the advancing egyptians (if you think about it its really scary) and how they started to blame God when the going gets tough. in fact, they said that they would rather go back and be slaves! (exd 14:11-12) which is a rather weird thought. but anyways, back to the point. and after they cross the red sea, they revert to singing praises and feared the Lord. i dont want to be fickle in my faith. i dont want to see to believe. i want to learn to have faith. because Jesus said "because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are thouse who have not seen and yet have believed." John 20:29 so yes, for my exams, and my results and the uni posting, i will just have faith that God will decide for me what He wants me to do. i'll just study hard and stop worrying. (hehheh. that's going to be difficult. i think i like to worry)

" The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still" Exodus 14:14
when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with You above the storm
Father You are King over the flood
i will be still know You are God
still - Hillsong

p.s. so to my dear brother who's fretting about coming here next year, dont worry too much. God has the ultimate plan for you. dont give up trusting in that big plan, because you will never really understand what God has in store for you till you experience it yourself. i know you will grow to love perth because i love it here now. dont worry too much, God will provide. okay? (: study hard. love from your da jie

a shout of praise.
11:59 PM

a shout of praise.
11:18 PM

lalala. hahaha. so anyways. i just finished watching minority report. yuerrrrrkassss. disgusting. but at least this round it wasnt as bad as before. i think it helps if you're trying to analyse the film. takes some of the scary bits away cos every action could symbolise something. bleh. spoils the whole movie. anyway. i think i'm starting to like the movie cos there's heaps to write on it. (i hope, even if there is i probably wont come up with anything good) i miss sec 4 english.

church tmr! hiphurray. i like going to subi (: one thing i will definitely miss IF i leave will be church and OCF ): i dont really wanna leave actually. i would stay. bleh. why is this whole leaving thing so difficult. everyone's pulling me places. i think i should just stop listening to others and listen to what God wants me to do. i feel quite overwhelmed actually. i still cant get the fact that uni starts NEXT YEAR. its like. BAM. you're an adult now (i associate uni with old people ;) ) and its scary. really scary.

i think i should stop thinking so far ahead and start studying first before i say anything otherwise i probably wont even be able stay here even if i wanted to.

anyway as i was saying. church tmr! we're going for the 9 oclock service. and i mean we by jeannie and me. yupp. we're getting there by ourselves cos uncle loi (or otherwise known as jeannie's dad) isnt in Perth, so we've been staying in her house by ourselves this weekend. so cool. i could get used to living in my own place. quite fun. (but i guess settling the bills wont be that fun after all) we're catching the train (: and after church we're going to the city to get lunch and then come back here to do stuff before going back to sch (by ourselves. hhehhehe) and jeannie's going off the camp! X_x what am i going to do without her for an ENTIRE WEEK?! oh wait. actually its good news. hahahaha. i can study in peace now :P haha. jokes jokes.

lalalalalala.

man. i cant believe i've only got 6 more weeks of OCF. AHHH!
i wanna go for convention next year!!
i love my bs group :D

i'll put a picture in when i can.

ahhh.

a shout of praise.
10:59 PM

esh, andrea, nat, ap

me, lisa, xiao, stef

craig girls: kita, jas (our WONDERFUL music captain), me

me and hannah at assembly (she's our house captain)

okay i cant be bothered posting up anymore photos of CAPAF. so too bad. i'm feeling really grumpy.

post another time.

a shout of praise.
4:43 PM